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River
That lovely, calming sound of water moving quickly over a weir is something special. I have a place—a park bench—where I listen to exactly that. Sheltered under a large tree, I can relax for a few idyllic moments and calm the system. I think everyone needs a space like this.…
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Die Trying
Some days I wake up and just want to scream “FUCK, WANK, TIT & BUM” at the top of my voice. Actually, I want to shout it many times and as loud as I can. It comes from a deep frustration with myself and a disappointment that I have touched…
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Disappointed
I awoke this morning feeling disappointed with myself. It wasn’t about one thing in particular, more about the life and opportunities I have not undertaken, or failed in doing. I get frustrated and annoyed very quickly, and the older I get, the more I realise that it isn’t necessarily about…
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Too Long
It has been too long since my last post and I apologise for the pause. It has been a difficult time with my moods low and anxiety high. My mind, of course, has been working overtime both day and night, but I am hoping that this—another chapter—is finally coming to…
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Talking to the Wind
We had good days, didn’t we?We smiled, even laughedLoved the momentsOf time togetherI remember missing youAnd seeing you arriveThat joy, that wantingIt was You, all YouMy dreams were livedEyes wide openSenses working overtimeSleep was briefSo not to miss the momentThe time of being aliveThe time of longing, lust and LoveWe…
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Helping me
Being frustrated with oneself is a depressing place to be. These last few weeks have been exactly that, with the last four or five days being particularly bad. For once, I don’t feel a danger to myself; in fact, I am remarkably calm, and that is where the problem lies.…